Kegelapan yang kita tinggalkan
Takkan sepenuhnya meninggalkan kita
Seperti sisanya akan terus menghantui
Mungkin untuk seumur hidup
Andai bayang itu dapat kita buang
Dapat kita tepis
Dapat kita lupa
Pasti kita akan lakukan
Namun tetap kita maklum
Selamanya takkan pernah kita mampu
Namun di sebalik bayangan itu
Percayalah adanya rahmat dan berkat
Maka berbahagialah
Dan usah terus berduka
Apatah lagi berputus asa
Bersyukur di atas semua yang Dia kirimkan
Kiriman mahupun pinjaman yang hanya sementara
Namun berjaya mengetuk hati
Lalu kita tersedar dari lupa dan leka
~ M. Fadz ~
1749
070817
Bilik No 1
P/s: Buat semua pinjamanNya buatku di dunia ini, sejuta syukur ku persembahkan meski tak mampu diungkap oleh lidah namun begitu terasa di hati dan walau pinjaman hanya satu pinjaman, pinjamanNya masih pinjaman yang terindah, ku pasti tanpa ragu.
Monday, August 7, 2017
Thursday, July 27, 2017
Alkisah Kelas Di Petang Hari
First of all sorry kalau title cam bebudak je. It's really a headache for me to think about the title. Ada tajuk pun mujur kan..?
Nak citer je pasal kelas petang semalam. Kelas Ulum Quran by Sheikh Isa. Ni baru kali kedua Sheikh masuk kelas. First time dulu sebelum Sheikh masuk nervous gak rase sebab nak compare ngan Sheikh Arab lain yang ada kat sini paling tak biase ngan Sheikh Isa dan Sheikh pun takdelah ramah cam Sheikh yang lain. Di samping risau kut tak faham Sheikh ajar apa ( den ni bukan faham arab sangat pun ).
But, what comes to surprise is.. pengajaran Sheikh Isa boleh difahami. Rasa cam semua akan setuju kalau kata Bahasa Arab yang Sheikh guna mudah untuk difahami. So far memang rasa syukur sangat. Teruja je benor sebab rasa mudah je faham Sheikh nak kabo mende. Payah tau kalau ada language barrier ni. Kang tak pasal communicate cam ayam dan itik.
Thanks to my friends yang happening dan terlebih rajin bertanya, class become more fun. Memang suka bertanya deme ni. Tapi yang perasan lah, time tanya pasal anak Sheikh berseri terus nampak muka. Diaorang ni siap tanya nama anak dan siap dengan makna sekali. Sheikh pun layan je soalan soalan tu. Sheikh pun ada kata yang Sheikh tengah sambung Master sekarang ni. Tajuk tesis kedengaran agak menarik ( tak tahulah kut saya je yang rasa begitu), ' Perbezaan Qiraat Dilihat Mengikut Sudut Bahasa'. Lebih kurang begitulah tajuknya.
Ada sekali tu Sheikh tanya dalam kelas kenapa umat Islam di Malaysia sambut Nuzul Quran pada 17 Ramadhan padahal kalau tengok Surah Al Qadr, katanya Al Quran diturunkan pada malam Lailatul Qadr. So acaner tu?
Maka Sheikh pun bagitau jawapannya memandangkan cam takde yang tahu. Kata Sheikh, pada malam Lailatul Qadr, Al Quran turun dari Lauh Mahfuz ke Langit Dunia sebagai jumlah wahidah ( turun sebutir gitu). Manakala, pada 17 Ramadhan turunnya ayat Al Quran pertama kali dari Langit Dunia kepada Rasulullah SAW.
Kelas cam sedap dah tapi dahu lah kalau boleh tidur jugak. Kelas petang lah katakan. Moga dapat bermujahadah lebih sedikit. Okay, tu jelah, sekian saja catatan untuk hari ini.
Esok balik. Hip Hip Hooray !
Nak citer je pasal kelas petang semalam. Kelas Ulum Quran by Sheikh Isa. Ni baru kali kedua Sheikh masuk kelas. First time dulu sebelum Sheikh masuk nervous gak rase sebab nak compare ngan Sheikh Arab lain yang ada kat sini paling tak biase ngan Sheikh Isa dan Sheikh pun takdelah ramah cam Sheikh yang lain. Di samping risau kut tak faham Sheikh ajar apa ( den ni bukan faham arab sangat pun ).
But, what comes to surprise is.. pengajaran Sheikh Isa boleh difahami. Rasa cam semua akan setuju kalau kata Bahasa Arab yang Sheikh guna mudah untuk difahami. So far memang rasa syukur sangat. Teruja je benor sebab rasa mudah je faham Sheikh nak kabo mende. Payah tau kalau ada language barrier ni. Kang tak pasal communicate cam ayam dan itik.
Thanks to my friends yang happening dan terlebih rajin bertanya, class become more fun. Memang suka bertanya deme ni. Tapi yang perasan lah, time tanya pasal anak Sheikh berseri terus nampak muka. Diaorang ni siap tanya nama anak dan siap dengan makna sekali. Sheikh pun layan je soalan soalan tu. Sheikh pun ada kata yang Sheikh tengah sambung Master sekarang ni. Tajuk tesis kedengaran agak menarik ( tak tahulah kut saya je yang rasa begitu), ' Perbezaan Qiraat Dilihat Mengikut Sudut Bahasa'. Lebih kurang begitulah tajuknya.
Ada sekali tu Sheikh tanya dalam kelas kenapa umat Islam di Malaysia sambut Nuzul Quran pada 17 Ramadhan padahal kalau tengok Surah Al Qadr, katanya Al Quran diturunkan pada malam Lailatul Qadr. So acaner tu?
Maka Sheikh pun bagitau jawapannya memandangkan cam takde yang tahu. Kata Sheikh, pada malam Lailatul Qadr, Al Quran turun dari Lauh Mahfuz ke Langit Dunia sebagai jumlah wahidah ( turun sebutir gitu). Manakala, pada 17 Ramadhan turunnya ayat Al Quran pertama kali dari Langit Dunia kepada Rasulullah SAW.
Kelas cam sedap dah tapi dahu lah kalau boleh tidur jugak. Kelas petang lah katakan. Moga dapat bermujahadah lebih sedikit. Okay, tu jelah, sekian saja catatan untuk hari ini.
Esok balik. Hip Hip Hooray !
Mencari CintaNya
Aku ingin bahagia,
Semua ingin bahagia,
Namun jalan menujunya,
Tak semudah yang disangka.
Tanya pada diri,
Apa makna bahagia,
Jawab pula hati,
Cinta kepadaNya.
Apa makna cinta padaNya?
Adakah sama seperti cinta pada manusia?
Terus berfikir mencari jawapan,
Namun adakah sudah ditemukan?
Ikuti perintahNya,
Jauhi laranganNya,
Mungkinkah itu jawapannya?
Boleh jadi itu jawapannya
Kerana andai cintanya kita pada manusia
Segala yang disuruh pasti diturut
Apa yang dilarang pasti dihindar
Bukankah begitu?
Namun jawapan terasa belum sempurna,
Tapi pasti itu sebahagiannya.
Terus berlari dan berlari,
Tanpa rasa berputus asa,
Takkan pernah berhenti mencari,
Sehingga bertemu cinta yang sempurna.
Cinta yang sempurna,
Hanya cinta kepadaNya,
Dan cinta keranaNya :)
~ M.Fadz ~
0125
270717
Bilik No1
Semua ingin bahagia,
Namun jalan menujunya,
Tak semudah yang disangka.
Tanya pada diri,
Apa makna bahagia,
Jawab pula hati,
Cinta kepadaNya.
Apa makna cinta padaNya?
Adakah sama seperti cinta pada manusia?
Terus berfikir mencari jawapan,
Namun adakah sudah ditemukan?
Ikuti perintahNya,
Jauhi laranganNya,
Mungkinkah itu jawapannya?
Boleh jadi itu jawapannya
Kerana andai cintanya kita pada manusia
Segala yang disuruh pasti diturut
Apa yang dilarang pasti dihindar
Bukankah begitu?
Namun jawapan terasa belum sempurna,
Tapi pasti itu sebahagiannya.
Terus berlari dan berlari,
Tanpa rasa berputus asa,
Takkan pernah berhenti mencari,
Sehingga bertemu cinta yang sempurna.
Cinta yang sempurna,
Hanya cinta kepadaNya,
Dan cinta keranaNya :)
~ M.Fadz ~
0125
270717
Bilik No1
Monday, July 24, 2017
Hari Ni Ada Ujian !
Alkisahnya hari ni ada ujian. Walaupun semalam tidur lewat, mujur tak mengantuk. Nervous gak semalam.Yelah orang lain dah beres kita je yang tinggal. dah lah last candidate ( biase dah ).
Mula duduk dalam Bilik Kuarantin dalam pukul 7.30 pagi. Setiap calon purata setengah jam. So lebih kurang pukul 9 ( kalau tak silap ) barulah jejak kaki dalam Bilik Ujian. Nervous tu memang dah tapi okay je sebab Ustaz tu suka sengih ( habis terjangkit sekali ).
Overall ujian tu, alhamdulillah berjalan lancar je. Takdelah perfect tapi patut banyak bersyukur dah tu. My good luck, I got the same questions like my friend! Seriously tak expect langsung. Sebab rasa cam dah minggu lain mesti ujian pun ambik soalan lain. Tu yang minggu lepas tanya je orang lain. Ku anggap rezeki aja. Alhamdulillah. So far boleh enjoy that test. Not lah as easy as kacang. But if we cant avoid something, just enjoy it right? Dan, bersyukur sangat sebab tak diserang ke'nervous'an. Parah tak terkawal nanti. It seem like I can get over my nervous pretty good lately ( walaupun still ada ) and also I realize that little by little I gain more confidence with myself. Alhamdulillah.
Saja nak tulis benda ni kat sini. Anggap jelah blog ni cam diari. Tulis kat sini sebab cam selesa sikit nak luah perasaan gembira. Lagipun tak semua orang rezeki baik masa ujian. Ada yang dapat soalan susah, ada yang nervous sampai gagap tak terjawab soalan. So, better citer kat sini jelah.
Mood menulis sambil kunyah seaweed. Walla .
Mula duduk dalam Bilik Kuarantin dalam pukul 7.30 pagi. Setiap calon purata setengah jam. So lebih kurang pukul 9 ( kalau tak silap ) barulah jejak kaki dalam Bilik Ujian. Nervous tu memang dah tapi okay je sebab Ustaz tu suka sengih ( habis terjangkit sekali ).
Overall ujian tu, alhamdulillah berjalan lancar je. Takdelah perfect tapi patut banyak bersyukur dah tu. My good luck, I got the same questions like my friend! Seriously tak expect langsung. Sebab rasa cam dah minggu lain mesti ujian pun ambik soalan lain. Tu yang minggu lepas tanya je orang lain. Ku anggap rezeki aja. Alhamdulillah. So far boleh enjoy that test. Not lah as easy as kacang. But if we cant avoid something, just enjoy it right? Dan, bersyukur sangat sebab tak diserang ke'nervous'an. Parah tak terkawal nanti. It seem like I can get over my nervous pretty good lately ( walaupun still ada ) and also I realize that little by little I gain more confidence with myself. Alhamdulillah.
Saja nak tulis benda ni kat sini. Anggap jelah blog ni cam diari. Tulis kat sini sebab cam selesa sikit nak luah perasaan gembira. Lagipun tak semua orang rezeki baik masa ujian. Ada yang dapat soalan susah, ada yang nervous sampai gagap tak terjawab soalan. So, better citer kat sini jelah.
Mood menulis sambil kunyah seaweed. Walla .
Perasaan..?
Perasaan memang hanya sebuah perasaan. Sesuatu yang orang selalu kata tidak perlu dilayan sangat. But still, it's a feeling. It still something that kept tightly within us.
Seorang demi seorang sahabat saya, sering meluahkan apa yang dirasakan. Bicara tentang perasaan. Dan rata rata atau saya boleh kata semua ( setakat ni ) meluahkan betapa sakitnya perasaan itu menyeksa mereka. Perasaan yang tak terbalas atapun sekadar sakitnya memendam rasa itu.I'm not really the right person to speak about this stuff but I can say that mostly for girls this age is the falling in love and heartbroken phase. Yeah, falling in love and get heartbroken and then falling in love again and again and then get broken again. That cycle keep going and going. Kadang rasa sangat bersimpati bila dengar kisah yang camtu tapi apakan daya hanya mampu memberi pinjam telinga, beri nasihat apa yang perlu sebab nak memujuk tidaklah begitu reti. Apatah lagi kalau sampai menangis, kita pun terasa sebak sekali. Tapi begitulah hidup, tak dapat nak lari. Because even we tell our hearts not to fall, you know.. it just wont listen.
Biasa satu ayat ni akan keluar dari mulut mereka, ' Taknak suka orang dah ' or ayat yang lebih kurang tapi semua bawa maksud sama. Serik nak jatuh cinta, masing masing memilih untuk tutup hati. Benda ni sangat dirasai sebab saya pun pernah camtu. Okay taknak citer pasal saya kat sini. Just my point is mereka ini memilih untuk menutup rapat hati mereka sebab.. rasa sakit yang seakan tak tertanggung. Feel like they will be fine by themselves, tak perlu orang lain. Pasal tu saya taknak ulas panjang panjang but each person might has different view as we live our life differently and we have different expereiences. Also, the way we think and look at something really depend on what we meet in our life.
To be honest, I dont have a really clear reason why I'm writing this but it could be because my friends always talking about this to me and I always be the listening ear even I'm also struggle with my own feeling. And when something like this happen, I tend to observe the situation, trying to understand and find solution ( if there is ). I really want to help my friends if I can or at least I find way to comfort them. Also, we dont just learn lessons from our own story but also from others too. If we really open our eyes ( mind and heart too of course ), sure there will be a lot to be learnt. And me too, still in process to understand the lesson. And if I have understand the lesson properly, I will share it in future post. InshaAllah.y
Semoga hati dan diri kita akan terus dan bertambah kuat dan tabah. Moga dapat sentiasa mempraktiskan sifat sabar dalam menghadapi cabaran hidup ini. Dan moga sentiasa ingat bahawa Allah sentiasa bersama orang yang sabar :)
P/s: Esok ujian, menangislah daku ~~
Seorang demi seorang sahabat saya, sering meluahkan apa yang dirasakan. Bicara tentang perasaan. Dan rata rata atau saya boleh kata semua ( setakat ni ) meluahkan betapa sakitnya perasaan itu menyeksa mereka. Perasaan yang tak terbalas atapun sekadar sakitnya memendam rasa itu.I'm not really the right person to speak about this stuff but I can say that mostly for girls this age is the falling in love and heartbroken phase. Yeah, falling in love and get heartbroken and then falling in love again and again and then get broken again. That cycle keep going and going. Kadang rasa sangat bersimpati bila dengar kisah yang camtu tapi apakan daya hanya mampu memberi pinjam telinga, beri nasihat apa yang perlu sebab nak memujuk tidaklah begitu reti. Apatah lagi kalau sampai menangis, kita pun terasa sebak sekali. Tapi begitulah hidup, tak dapat nak lari. Because even we tell our hearts not to fall, you know.. it just wont listen.
Biasa satu ayat ni akan keluar dari mulut mereka, ' Taknak suka orang dah ' or ayat yang lebih kurang tapi semua bawa maksud sama. Serik nak jatuh cinta, masing masing memilih untuk tutup hati. Benda ni sangat dirasai sebab saya pun pernah camtu. Okay taknak citer pasal saya kat sini. Just my point is mereka ini memilih untuk menutup rapat hati mereka sebab.. rasa sakit yang seakan tak tertanggung. Feel like they will be fine by themselves, tak perlu orang lain. Pasal tu saya taknak ulas panjang panjang but each person might has different view as we live our life differently and we have different expereiences. Also, the way we think and look at something really depend on what we meet in our life.
To be honest, I dont have a really clear reason why I'm writing this but it could be because my friends always talking about this to me and I always be the listening ear even I'm also struggle with my own feeling. And when something like this happen, I tend to observe the situation, trying to understand and find solution ( if there is ). I really want to help my friends if I can or at least I find way to comfort them. Also, we dont just learn lessons from our own story but also from others too. If we really open our eyes ( mind and heart too of course ), sure there will be a lot to be learnt. And me too, still in process to understand the lesson. And if I have understand the lesson properly, I will share it in future post. InshaAllah.y
Semoga hati dan diri kita akan terus dan bertambah kuat dan tabah. Moga dapat sentiasa mempraktiskan sifat sabar dalam menghadapi cabaran hidup ini. Dan moga sentiasa ingat bahawa Allah sentiasa bersama orang yang sabar :)
P/s: Esok ujian, menangislah daku ~~
I'm Back, My Dear Blog
Haihh mau bersarang dah blog ni. Hmm ape boleh buat.. angin menulis dah lesap entah ke mane. Masa pun tak berada nak ada even untuk diri sendiri. Ni pun curi masa tengah malam, waktu gini jelah free sikit. Esok ada ujian but still selamba badak je nak menulis. Tetibe rase geletak nak menulis. Gigih sangat nak menulis sampai susah payah pinjam lappy dengan orang lain sebab my lappy ade kat rumah lah pulak mase ni :( Haih ni mesti kes terinspirasi tanpa sengaja.
By the way, thanks to that one person I was inspired to get back to write again and inshaAllah I will try to write more regularly. I'm a newbie so if there is any mistake do tell me. Whether the grammar or language or idea or anything that contained in my post.
And in the end, I hope that my spirit always burn up. Keep writing dearself !
I choose writing to be a part of theraphy in my life beside other things too. In the same time I can learn how to put my mind and heart into words. Hope I ( and others also ) can pick as much benefits from this. Hopefully.
By the way, thanks to that one person I was inspired to get back to write again and inshaAllah I will try to write more regularly. I'm a newbie so if there is any mistake do tell me. Whether the grammar or language or idea or anything that contained in my post.
And in the end, I hope that my spirit always burn up. Keep writing dearself !
I choose writing to be a part of theraphy in my life beside other things too. In the same time I can learn how to put my mind and heart into words. Hope I ( and others also ) can pick as much benefits from this. Hopefully.
Wednesday, February 1, 2017
Here Comes, February
Our first 31 days have gone like a blink of eyes isn't it? Even so, here comes life lessons for this past month.
1. Being a good person doesn't mean that person is a saint, it doesn't mean no mistake at all, no sin. As we all know, all human being is a sinner and we know the best among the sinner is the one who repent. So if we realize that we just commit sin, doesn't matter how big or small it is, don't give up to ask for His forgiveness as He is the one who forgive the most.
2. Sin is something that clearly bad for us. But sometimes it's something that bring us closer to Allah. and anything that brings us closer to Allah is a blessing despite how it looks from the outside. I don't mean for us to always commit sin but what I mean is as we can't run away from commiting sin, we should make it something that bring us closer to Allah so it doesn't waste just like that.
3. We can't change our past but we can change our future. We may have something that make us wish to turn back the time so we can change what we have did, even we know it's impossible. We may the worst one in past but have faith that we still have the change to be someone better, the best version of us. Stay chill if people talk about the bad thing about us, as people will keep talking. In the end, only us know the latest version of us, whether it's the better or worse.
4. Our stories may not same to each other. Each of us has different stories and different stories doesn't mean it's wrong. It's not wrong, it just different. Don't feel down when this happen, keep our head straight, our story is just special the way it is. Remember, each of our life story is the best one as it's written by Him, the best writer.
5. Never judge others. Yeah sometimes I also did it but I already had my lesson because of it. Thanks to it, I learnt a lot. Usually when we judge others, the same thing will happen to us. When we judge others, we don't try to understand their situation, that's why sometimes it happen back to us so we can understand better. So just as reminder, keep in mind, don't judge others.
6. Be thankful if there is someone who always support us whether from behind or side, any way can do. When we feel like too tired to fight, they will say ' Just a little more, you can do it!'. You know, this kind of situation is really heartwarming, touching every inch of our heart.
7. To be success, to get what we want, by hook or by crook, we need to sacrifice. In the scope of study, we may get less sleep, less play, less movie, less game and such so we have most time for what we trully want. It may drain our energy to the extent we feel like we have no energy left, but believe me it worth it. The torture is just temporary but the result is forever. Keep praying so Allah ease everything and help us always.
8. Not everyone that study will success but to be success we need to study. Even that person is overly genius, study is still a must. Don't stop studying even we feel like there is no hope left as nothing is impossible for Allah. Seek for His help, He will obviously help.
9. We rarely got a second change so if we got one, don't get it waste or we will regret it.
10. Love sometimes make us weak, sometimes make us strong. So which one, we choose.
This all for this month. Hope the days after this will continuously filled with happiness, even it comes with price. Keep strong guys!
1. Being a good person doesn't mean that person is a saint, it doesn't mean no mistake at all, no sin. As we all know, all human being is a sinner and we know the best among the sinner is the one who repent. So if we realize that we just commit sin, doesn't matter how big or small it is, don't give up to ask for His forgiveness as He is the one who forgive the most.
2. Sin is something that clearly bad for us. But sometimes it's something that bring us closer to Allah. and anything that brings us closer to Allah is a blessing despite how it looks from the outside. I don't mean for us to always commit sin but what I mean is as we can't run away from commiting sin, we should make it something that bring us closer to Allah so it doesn't waste just like that.
3. We can't change our past but we can change our future. We may have something that make us wish to turn back the time so we can change what we have did, even we know it's impossible. We may the worst one in past but have faith that we still have the change to be someone better, the best version of us. Stay chill if people talk about the bad thing about us, as people will keep talking. In the end, only us know the latest version of us, whether it's the better or worse.
4. Our stories may not same to each other. Each of us has different stories and different stories doesn't mean it's wrong. It's not wrong, it just different. Don't feel down when this happen, keep our head straight, our story is just special the way it is. Remember, each of our life story is the best one as it's written by Him, the best writer.
5. Never judge others. Yeah sometimes I also did it but I already had my lesson because of it. Thanks to it, I learnt a lot. Usually when we judge others, the same thing will happen to us. When we judge others, we don't try to understand their situation, that's why sometimes it happen back to us so we can understand better. So just as reminder, keep in mind, don't judge others.
6. Be thankful if there is someone who always support us whether from behind or side, any way can do. When we feel like too tired to fight, they will say ' Just a little more, you can do it!'. You know, this kind of situation is really heartwarming, touching every inch of our heart.
7. To be success, to get what we want, by hook or by crook, we need to sacrifice. In the scope of study, we may get less sleep, less play, less movie, less game and such so we have most time for what we trully want. It may drain our energy to the extent we feel like we have no energy left, but believe me it worth it. The torture is just temporary but the result is forever. Keep praying so Allah ease everything and help us always.
8. Not everyone that study will success but to be success we need to study. Even that person is overly genius, study is still a must. Don't stop studying even we feel like there is no hope left as nothing is impossible for Allah. Seek for His help, He will obviously help.
9. We rarely got a second change so if we got one, don't get it waste or we will regret it.
10. Love sometimes make us weak, sometimes make us strong. So which one, we choose.
This all for this month. Hope the days after this will continuously filled with happiness, even it comes with price. Keep strong guys!
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)